Texas Dirty Girl

What is a day lived to it's fullest ? Sleeping in,  gardening  learning something new , making love all day ?  For me, it is  doing all of it and more each and every day . I wake up trying to remind myself that I am healthy and lucky to be alive and to enjoy every breath I take . So why is it that I find it so hard to just be proud of myself for all of the cool things I can do ? why do i feel the need to pick everything apart and look for ways i could be better ? Will I ever be happy with I did it .